Wednesday, January 11, 2006
haiz..wtf is gg on.. though it ended le. but it started again yesterdaY.. haiz.. two more weeks and there gg to be a big change in my life.. haiz.. think this meant for me ba.. today go ite to sign up. the fucking teacher lik idiot lik that don know waqd he trying to do lo. haiz.. after there go town lo.find my friends tok tok . than they say they go pub thn i sian lo. i go walk alone.. thn who knows rain rain till so heavy some more. haiz.wan to go home also don dare.. stay at void deck. wait for police to catch but really kanna lo.. very suay. fourth this month le.. haiz... just reach hm saw my parents talking over thing that i not allowed to hear..but haiz.. i know liao onli will add stress to them lo..haiz.. don know wad to do. scare to disappoint them agaiin.. disappoint them alot of time liao..haiz think if can't handle ite thn i rather give up le.. let my sis they all go do thing they wan le.. instead of spending the money on a fucking useeless lik me.. haiz.. should i give up?? i don know actually wan i wan in life but i'm sure i don wan my family and girlfriend to suffer.. haiz.. but now i think i have already made them suffer alot.. trying to make it up to them now but think too late liao lo.. wasted alot time being wid them helpingthem to solve their problem but instead givinn them fucking lots of excuse not to go to ite.. haiz.. sorry mother.. sob sob.. haiz.. as for my girlfriend hope she will stick wid me till the end of this lo.. nth liao.. wish everybody will be hhappy wid wad they have.. hiaz..